I don’t want to deal with this anymore

For years I have struggled with pain and digestive issues. I was on depo for 3 years to control symptoms and got off because my symptoms were returning even worse than before. I was still having cyclical symptoms while on it, but it wasn’t enough for my doctor to want to check. I pushed for it though. Finally had a lap in march, my doctor didn’t remove my suspected endo because it was near my femoral nerve. He found and removed adhesions that caused my colon and bladder to stick together. I was told it’s stage 1 if the test is confirmed. I feel bad talking about my disease when I read about others because I don’t seem to have it “as bad as others”. However, my pain and constipation get so bad that I miss work or having a social life. The pain that shoots down my legs is so bad I can’t walk. It seems to tense up my whole right side. The crazy thing is i have been saying something has been wrong with my right side for years. When i found out it was near my femoral nerve on my right side it felt so oddly validating. I felt crazy until I came here and saw so many other women dealing with similar experiences. I don’t know the whole point of my post. This is my first time ever sharing my experience. I don’t do gluten or dairy in order to relieve the digestive symptoms, but it doesn’t seem like enough. Having painful sex to the point that you don’t feel like dealing with it feels mentally depleting in your late 20s. It feels like no one wants to deal with it. My family doesn’t understand either and I don’t feel like I have anyone to talk to. I’m tired of feeling alone
Waiting for another surgery next year with a new doctor, hope it will help

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Just because it might not seem as bad as others doesn’t mean it’s not valid. It’s my first day on this site and I stumbled on your post. It can feel very lonely. I’ve been struggling a lot with my sex life. I definitely have become avoidant with sex. Almost scared of it.
It’s definitely very validating to have a “reason” pain. Being able to name it

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